random

Finally, I feel like writing again :D

so umm it has been 4 months since i've been here and I keep missing home more and more each day.

Here's the thing, i just realize something lately

gue ngga tau ya ini cuma gue doang apa semua orang juga merasa yang sama, tapi menurut gue pertemanan di Indonesia bisa jauh lebih erat daripada disini. Gimana ya? gue juga bingung buat nge break down nya. tapi gini ya coba misalnya ada temen gue, dia setiap lunch main nya sama group A, sepulang sekolah mainnya dengan group B, terus pas weekend mainnya sama group C. and it got me thinking "terus lo jadi temennya siapa si?", mungkin bagus juga sih in some way jadinya membaur. tapi gimana ya? jadinya itu seakan2 ngga ada temen yang bener2 temen. itu cuma sekedar temen hang-out doang. terus jadinya suatu hari gue pernah came across a conversation (gue hanya sebagai pendengar) dimana tau2 salah satu temen gue bilang "bisa ga kita ga ngomongin ini? gue belum segitunya temenan sama elo buat bisa ngomongin ginian"

terus gue yang kyk "what?!" i mean lo kan temen? tapi kok lo segitu ngebatesinnya sih? maksudnya apaan? masalahnya gue sama temen2 gue di indonesia kalo ngmong yaudah asal bablas aja, ngga ada tuh statement2 yang seperti itu.

terus kalo gue di indonesia, mau lunch pulang sekolah apa weekend main nya sama itu2 aja. well ya ngga itu2 aja sih kesannya gimana tapi ngerti lah ya maksud gue gimana? oh my god i am so bad with story telling hahaha but you know what i mean :) Tapi jadinya bisa lebih deket dan sebagainya.

kasarnya kalo di indonesia gue merasa orang2 itu lebih nge"geng" dan orang sini ga gitu peduli jadinya sama siapa aja ya oke2 aja. but i don't think that it's a bad thing. asal tau batasannya aja.

oh well at least that's what i think. i'm currently in wisconsin right now for christmas. just got back from snow shoeing and i never thought it would be that hard :p

i'll post christmas stuff soon :D

Dawn

Finally. after going through 21 hours of flight, got checked out by some indian dude, indian kids screaming and crying on the plane. And indian chick who to claimed my baggage was hers.

I am finally here.

Hello, Baltimore.

it's been awhile since i've tried to come here. And i finally did. It was so overwhelming. I didn't know whether i should be happy or sad cause i have to leave my loved ones for 10 months.

It all happened so fast, I almost couldn't keep up.

I used to be so ready, cause it has been my dream since i was 12 to be able to live here with my aunt. And because of couple of problems, it was almost impossible to do so. But my mom never gave up, she got somekind of stubborn issue actually. She has to get what she wants no matter what. Eventually, goods came out of it.

But when it's really in front of my eyes. When I was finally in the airport. It hit me just like that. All sorts of things came and rushing through my head. like

"what am I doing?"

"I can't believe I'm leaving for 10 months"

"will I be the same person again"

"will my boyfriend be there when I come home?"

that scared the crap out of me.

Along came him. Apparently, it was just in time when i was about to leave in a couple of weeks.

It was sooo hard. Knowing that I have to leave for 10 months. But he said he'll wait. I hope he'll keep his promise.

oh please be nice. You have no idea how glad I am to have you :)

And my friends. I was so flattered when they gave me the farewell gifts.

it's a scrap book about all things me that my friend made. I have no idea that they knew me so well :')

they also baked this favorite cookies of mine. I have no idea what's its name, all I know is that they are so good :9

And my boyf gave me this book, been reading it since i got in the plane.

i'll write the reviews soon! right after i finish it :D

I feel so fortunate that i have super great friends and family. and of course, boyfriend. No doubt about it.

I'll miss you guys, I really will.

See you soon :*

It'll be a new start and experience for me. Hope i could adapt just fine. Fingers crossed ♥

current ambition

Just started my senior year of high school

and here are my current ambition :3

So actually since i was little there were 2 things that i wanted to be when i grow up. The first one was to be a veterinarian. I lovve animals and there were these urge inside of me that wanted to help or even save them. But the thing is, i am terrified of blood. Hence, it is just not possible. So yeah, veterinarian were crossed from the list.

And the second one is to be an architect, i don't know why exactly. But seeing unique buildings or houses just fascinates me. Not only just unique though, especially when history were made inside of it. Either if it's the declaration of independence or simply just the place where he proposed, or where their baby had his/her first step, they are all priceless. And it always made me think that i would build one someday, a place where priceless things happened.

So i decided to be an architect :D

In order to fulfill though, i just signed myself to villa merah. it's like art lessons for those who wanted design or

architecture for their undergraduate program. SO STOKED!

fingers crossed :)

Someday, i would become just like him. Or even better, Tadao Ando.

Amin.

current obsession

Jón “Jónsi” Þór Birgisson the guitarist and vocalist of the icelandic band Sigur Rós just released a solo album this april. it's called "Go". and just like that i was captivated. There are just no words to describe the tranquility of the album.

Tracklist:

Go Do
Animal Arithmetic
Tornado
Boy Lilikoi
Sinking Friendships
Kolnidur
Grow Till Tall
Around Us
Hengilas

You should and MUST check him out. especially Kolnidur and animal arithmatic :D

uh ohh i wish he would come to indonesia somehow someway. with or without Sigur Rós. either way i would be the first one to buy the ticket. just like what i did to copeland hihii :3

and last week i went to west java for study tour. gonna upload some pictures soon ♥

hello again

haha it's been awhile don't you think? okay so the reason that i haven't been writing is that i had some pretty unlikeable experience that i just want to throw it away to the trash can part in my brain. By writing, somehow i could remember it all exactly with every little detail how it happened. That's why i don't like to recall humiliating and uncomfortable moments. Cause it would just ruin my day.And i don't like that i'm being like that, get it? hahaha But, i'm back on my feet now. And oh,

I like to run from unlikeable facts.

bold and underline it. period.

So, February. Where to start?

it has been a pretty fun, whimsical, and everything in between month. i lovve it. It has soo many birthdays and umm it was just plain fun ♥

and i started to use my lomo fisheye camera again, i forgot how much fun using it. here are some pictures from my friend neisya's and fanissa's birthday

And wish me luck please, i'm having my midterm test tomorrow. it's gonna be physics for the first day, and i am not feeling like studying AT ALL. *sigh*

oh well, bye now ♥

Random

The problem is, i live in the past.

cause things seemed better at that time.

i'm tired

100 words

well, i just borrowed this book called "100 kata" from my friend. So it is a book that consist of many stories, and each story have approximately 100 words. It is just amazing how such few words could describe so many things.

Some of the stories are bewildered, but that is just the way i like it. made me use my imagination and think out of the box.

So, you should check it out. and umm below is one of my favorite story from the book.

sialan, bintang jatuh lagi

oleh Krisna Adityawan

Sialan, bintang jatuh lagi

Hari-hariku kuhabiskan untuk mencari bintang jatuh,

Berharap hanya ilusi

Sialan, ia teronggok di hadapanku

Terpaksa aku ambil. Atau tidak? Atau kutinggal? Atau kubuang saja? Tahu dari mana ia untukku? Jangan-jangan hanya menggodaku

Sialan, ia bersinar di tanganku

Kubawa saja, siapa tau ia bisa menerangi kamarku

Kalau untuk menerangi hatiku?

Kuletakkan dalam hatiku

Mingguku kuhabiskan merawat bintang

Merasakan ia menghangatkan hatiku

Cahayanya makin memerah. Ia berubah

Sialan, ia membakar hatiku

Panas, sakit, pedih, perih

kucoba menahan

Sialan, ia terbang menjauh

Ku menengadah, menunjuk langit

Berharap menemukan bintang lain

Sialan, bintang jatuh lagi

Apa kali ini ia untukku?

christmas dinner

As usual, my friend Joan always held this Christmas dinner at her house. And her mom's cooking are just over the top good. no I am not exaggerating, seriously the food are always THAT good.
haha so here are some pictures, i know it's kinda late. i've been too lazy these days :)

oh! and can't wait for new year! me and my friends are going to the beach yaayy :D

sigh

and here comes a point where the so called world wide web is starting to bores me

trying to find some entertainment here, everything seems dull all of the sudden

yes, i am dead bored

here's something about me

okay, so umm somehow i just want to share this with you

here it is..

i was not born as the healthiest person, well maybe as a baby i was perfectly fine

but somehow as i grew older i started to find out these allergies i got

and i just find them weird

it's because though i'm living in this tropical country, somehow i am allergic to most of the tropical fruits. especially the fruits that contains loads of saps. i'm bored here, so let me list them down for you :)

1. rambutan

2. durian

3. manggis

4. pear, sometimes

5. dukuh

and many more

so the symptoms that indicate those allergies are: my face got swollen, and so are the rest of my body, and umm it itches everywhere. and also my asthma relapsed. haha i know right.

and umm i'm also allergic to: 1. dust

2. too many chemical progressed food

and oh! i got sinus! great huh?? so i got this so called morning allergies haha

and i just realized that i got one reaaaallly round nose, maybe it's because of those flu from sinuses. does that made any sense?

grr im beeing absurd ♥

okay, so i'm gonna post pictures of christmas yesterday. but im beeing lazy at the moment. so just hang around folks :D

obscure

okay here's the thing..

it all seems pretty obscure to me now

laying there with you that day

hearing your heart beats

i could feel your warmth through me

and as i breather you in

i felt save

it seemed right

something occurred to me again

somehow i want you to come back

be here with me

it all seems strange and untrue

i was sure that you were out of this little place in my head

seems that i might be wrong

so i keep telling my self that it's just an illusion

it's not real

it's not

and hoping that i could keep those thoughts away from me

11th december

so finally today is the first day after term test. thaanks god it's over! i am utterly tired up to this point. and luckily i got pretty good scores so i dont need to do retests, except for japanese language i think. oh well :) haha anyways today is my friend dhira's birthday. and we had a fun dinner at gourment garage, it's her treat. yayyness!

captivated

okay, i got hypnotized when i heard jon por birgisson's latest single. it is from his up coming solo album. go sign up for the mailing list and get the latest single! :D

sign up here!

playlist

Well apparently i'm out of words. School had been hectic with all the assignments and stuff. And term test is coming. wish me luck though :D

anyhow i just want to share the songs that i just can't get enough of, these are like my all time fave

1.

.

Lydia:

-this is twice now

-hospital

2.

Mew:

-Hawaii

-Silas the magic car

3.

Copeland:

-Chin up

-The day i lost my voice (the suitcase song)

3.

Phoenix

-1901

4.

Sigur ros:

-Hoppipolla

-Saeglopur

well you should check them out ♥

awfull truth

come to think of it getting too excited is never a good thing

just don't because you're in love, get a good score or anything

well it's okay if you're happy and stuff. but you got to have boundaries

and able to control your self

cause eventually nature is balance. at it has it's own ways to balance your over excitement

if you know what i mean

no i don't believe in karma, they are overrated.

but i do believe that nature is balance

yes, they are.

they will always try to be in stable equilibrium

and us human are part of nature

but hey i'm just saying. what do i know anyway, i'm only 16 :)

just something that i start to believe these past few months ♥

coffee

©El Gregein

Remember that night...

you said you missed me

so you drove 48 km just to see me

it was 10 pm

we had coffee

it was brief, but mesmerizing at the same time

and i've been stuck on you ever since...

present

"sometimes we got caught up in illusion and ignore reality"

Gili trawangan, Lombok

Last july i went to this small island near Lombok, Indonesia. Called gili Trawangan. it is It is 3km long and 2km wide with a population of about 700. And it has the most beautiful beaches i have ever seen. The sea were blue and the sand was pure white. The natives were so nice, and they really respect the tourists. like if you leave your blackberry at the beach while you went snorkeling, no one would still it. If someone did, the natives would search who the person was and beat them to death. awesomee haha well you should visit gili trawangan. and the best thing is that it's not that crowded compared to bali.

.

And yet somehow you still keep showing up in my dreams. every night

seems that there's this part of me that doesn't want to let you go

consolation

sit here next to me

just so we can be in silence

feeling the breeze through our vein

sshhh...

not a word,

words are source of misunderstandings